Yes, I have about 2 and half months before graduate with PhD in bf. Double PhD sb time Adam dulu pun Alhamdulillah, managed to fully bf until 2yo, and continued tandem nursing for 4 months after delivered Ryan. During that time, Adam already 2 yo and started with UHT milk since he refused to take formula milk. Generally kalau dihitung, daripada Adam sambung ke Ryan, I just fully rest from bf for only 2 months during preggy. Sebab time preggy, Adam still bf till I was 7mos preggy. And talking about breast pumping, I think I cuti dalam 5-6months je.
Kalau nak tahu, ever since my first preggy until now, I'm still wearing breastfeeding bra and I miss to visit La Senza so much. Uhuks!!!
Due to this, lately ni I bnyk sgt buat -ve statement about breastfeeding. Bukannye kata bf semua tak bagus. It just that, I complaint a lot. Malas nak pumping. Sakit belakang. Ryan kuat gayut malam2. Serba serbi malas lah. At one level, I managed to deplete all my stocks few weeks ago, sb lately ni tahap gaban gila malas nak pump. Dekat nursery lama Ryan dulu, diorang selalu inform kata Ryan kurang minum ebm dah, at one time dia buang sebab tak habis. Vavavava..depa ingat duk perah tiap2 hari tak penat ke, amboi2..So, since tu, I just pump for his daily consumptions. Dekat playschool ni, maybe sb dah selalu bekal yg fresh, yesterday stock, so Ryan suka ke ape, dia minum lah pulak. Nak tak nak sekarang kena ensure daily pump 12-14 oz for next day stocks. So at 21 mos, officially I'm no longer have any ebm stock in case of emergency. Syabas betti! *ni kalau ada apa2 mampos*
Until yesterday, I triggered by one of my ex-colleague through iG. Dia bgtau yg dia aim nak fully bf her kids as well after our team-building 4 years back. That time I just joined my company and was sent for a teambuliding. Adam baru 4 bulan, so pagi2 gigih lah mengepam, bising satu rumah dengan mini-e nye. So, I think mase tu diorang semua *sb ramai yg bujang2* duk tny lah about bf. Seriously, I never thought that the short conversation we had during our 2 nights stay, boleh encouraged dia untuk fully bf her kids as well. Yup, she managed to prove it. Now dia pun tgh bf her first lovely princess. Sgt gebus!!
Great job Irni!!
And last night, for the first time, rase malu sgt dengan diri ini. Yeah..my journey mungkin dah nak abis, but others might just started or still tengah tambah ilmu about bf. Sometimes with my -ve statement, mungkin buat u'oll rase down about bf, I'm so sorry. My bad. Starting from last night, I have promised myself, InysaAllah, although I truly need rest a lil while in breastfeeding, but I will never ever put any -ve statement about bf anymore. Yes, breastfeeding is so beautiful. Maybe I boleh berlagak masa ni nak cepat abis 2 years kan, but believe me after a while mesti rindu balik nak bf. Its part of my life already. Part of my daily routine. I might feel empty after this. Rase penat, malas semua, all breastfeeding mommies akan rase, I don't have to make that statement sepatutnye. My fault! =( And promised to encourage more mommies to fully bf as well. I will try my best to help any new mommies who need some tips in bf. Just drop me email/watsapp or any social media you have to contact me, InsyaAllah, will try my best to share.
Dengan baki 2 months ni, I will try my best to enjoy as much as I can. Yeah, I'm striving for another PhD. *sebak nye*
ps: walaupun hakikatnye, in education wise, I tak pernah plan nak sambung PhD wuhahahaha..